Been 2 yrs since i really sit down and run through my blog...
I realized that i have grown alot.
Looking at all the flames previously. really shows how immature i was. I actually wanted to delete the post. But i am not doing so, bcoz i am not ashamed. Everyone has a past. What has pass has passed, the most important thing is to learn from the mistakes. So, i shall not delete those ranting posts.
Well, to be frank. I have to admit i suffer from depression before. That was what i diagnose myself to be. Else i really canot make sense why i always choose to stay at my sengkang home alone all day. Refusing to speak to anyone. yes, no one at all. My husband is overseas, my family is not with me. All alone. me + tv. It was so bad that when i tried to call someone to talk to. I stared at the hp long enough for the vision to go blur. I began tearing as i dunno who i can call.
I personally do not like the feeling of being used. Thus, I do not want my friends to feel that i call them just becuase william is not in singapore.
The main problem why i do not go out with my friends is plainly because...i am broke.
seriously broke...债台高筑...when i am out with william, we spend very little on transport and we eat the cheapest and tastiest hawker food. But my friends being a hippy. Loves to enjoy life so i really cannot afford it.
After i found this job, my finances are starting to get better. At the very least, we can plan our debt payment plan and we can see light in 2 years.
I am hopeful that we can face this together.
I am hopeful that william will learn his mistake and not gamble again.
I an hopeful that I myself will learn not to overspend like there is no tomorrow.
Frankly, i wrote this post when my PMS is over. The problem that i am facing lately is, i really what i am doing when my PMS starts coming. Touchy, Grouchy...a total devil...sigh...guess i need hormones pills! haha
Ok will make it a point to write my blog... I noticed how important blog is.
Blog will remind me of my stupidity :)
{*Her Pets*}
{*Her Gallery I*}
{*Her Gossips*}
{*aBoUt XrYztaL*}
Name : XrYztaL
Age : maKe a gUeSs
biRtHdaY : 15th aPriL
zoDiaC : aRieS
{*Her Favourite Links*}
@. Friendster .@
@. Horoscope .@
@. Hyun Bin .@
@.我的名叫金三順.@
@. Hyun Bin .@
@. Shirlyn .@
@. Lynn .@
@. Piano .@
@. Tattoo .@
@. DJ Philaricist .@
@. Darth Vader .@
{*She Loves*}
to be hug and pampered
Jay Chou,Louis Khoo
Joseph zheng
Music
eurodance, new age, trance,
r&B, rock,reggae
Food
ramen, steamboat,
pocky, bueno,
MasHiMaro~
dolphin, penguin
cat, dog
{*She Hates*}
loneliness
nagging from people
to be fat
to be neglected
to be forgotten
selfish human
{*Her Wishes*}
1. Weight to drop to 50kg.
2. CLEAR HER DEBTS.
(*Current Favourite Songs*)
1 : She Is
Clazziquai
2 : ee byul mot han ee byul
Ji Sun
3 : ah reum da oon sa ram
Seo Yoo Suk